Zumba Fitness♥

Tonight I have started classes called Zumba Fitness ♥
Every Monday night is in a club called Molly Darcy's and every Sunday it's at a War Memorial.
There are classes every Monday, Wednesday, & Friday but we can't make it on Wednesdays.
I wish I had a girlfriend I could go with but I have to go with my mom instead, but that's alright lol
Even though she's uncoordinated and keeps knocking into me, we still have lots of fun.

Anyway, this my chosen way of exercise.
Instead of heading out to the boring gym every week and walking on a treadmill for an hour, I get to go to a club and listen to some kick ass dance music and dance while exercising at the same time.

I'm really committed to this and hope to lose enough weight where I'll be able to wear a bikini and ACTUALLY look hot lmfao

Alone...

So, I am completely single, and don't even bother to ask why because I don't even wanna get into it.

Everytime I try to make plans with people in my area, they bail on me or come up with excuses or something gets in the way or goes wrong and the people that would actually hang out with me, are in another state and I'm not allowed to see them.

I sleep all day because I'm up all night watching movies and playing video games that I've watched and played a thousand times already.

I have no job, which equals no money, and no license, which of course equals no car.

I really wanna start volunteering already at the animal shelter I applied to but all I know is that I'm supposed to be getting an email about when the orientation for the cat program is and I still haven't gotten it yet, so I'm stuck here at home, waiting for this email that seems like it's never gonna come.

I need just anything to get me out of this house.
I guess I just expect friends, a boyfriend or girlfriend, a job, a license, etc. to just come to me but I know they won't.
I have to go out and work for them and look for them myself, except I have no means of doing that.

I have come to the conclusion that I have no life, I am completely alone, and I guess I just like to feel sorry for myself...

My mother blames my bad attitude and laziness for the absence of all the things I just listed and she's probably right because I know I have a bad attitude and I am EXTREMELY lazy...

But what am I gonna do about that ???

Nothing.
Guess I'll just sit here, shut up in the white walls of my room that seem more like prison bars, and wallow in my misery, like always....

Kitty Volunteer, Pirates, & a Bi Beauty ♥

So, instead of volunteering at some boring hospital that smells like clerical soap, I shall be volunteering at the local animal shelter and be playing and taking care of the kitties >:D ♥
I went to the orientation for all volunteers tonight and in another week or so, should be getting an email about when to attend the orientation for the cat program (:
I decided to work with the cats because almost all the volunteers that came to the orientation decided to work with the dogs and, as much as I love dogs, the cats need tending as well, plus I love all animals ♥
Well, at least ones with fur, anyway :P

On Friday, I'm going to see the new Pirates of the Carribbean movie with my girly, Catherine ♥
Which should be fun IF it isn't sold out xP lol

And tonight I was IMed by a random girl that I didn't even know AT FIRST, but it turns out she knows my cousin and almost our whole family.
She's lived in Danbury and she currently lives in Yonkers, she's eighteen, and she's a bisexual beauty ♥
There was a bit of flirting going on but I let her know I'm not available right now but if and when I do become available, I will DEFINITELY give her a shot [;
Her name is Cassie ♥

Still very much in love with * Benji * ♥ and oh . . .
Did I mention that my cousin is probably moving to Puerto Rico ? >:D

That is all.
Tootles , & goodnight [:
♥

A Night in the City that Never Sleeps with the One Person You Can't Live Without ♥

So, because I had such a beautifully enchanting evening in New York City with the Great Benjamin last night, I've decided to blog about it (:

So, I spent the night with Benji last night for my 18th birthday that passed a couple weeks ago and we were supposed to be going to the Palisades mall but my mom screwed us up because she called it the Nanuet mall so me and Benji basically took a bunch of train rides and ended up in New Jersey or at least, the borderline of New Jersey and New York.

So basically, the whole night turned into a big adventure with romantic train rides and holding hands under the never ending lights of the city that never sleeps ♥
We walked through Times Square and he had his arm around me and we saw the Empire State Building lit up and it was simply beautiful ♥
It felt like we didn't have to hide and we could just be together and belong to each other and be happy together ♥

We ate at the best McDonalds in New York where the burgers actually look like they do in the commercials and we indulged ourselves in a bunch of food and we finished it off with Milk n' Cookie shakes from ColdStone Creamery. It was a sweet ending to a delicious meal.
He ate 2 angus burgers and some fries and I ate 2 grilled chipotle snack wraps and some fries.

We finished the night off on a 45 minute train ride back to the suburbs in our own private seat that we kinda found by accident but it secluded us from the rest of the train and its passengers so we had like our own private seating.
And, of course, the Great Benjamin discovered it >:D

So, lets just say it got a little steamy but then it died down to simply romantic and we started kissing while listening to "When Its Love" by Van Halen. And we actually didn't kiss until the romantic chorus broke out and it was just SO corny but SO fucking romantic at the same time and it just felt so perfect ♥
So, because of that indescribable moment, that's basically OUR song now lol :P ♥

The end to the evening was kinda sad and frustrating because we had a serious discussion that we didn't even get to finish and it upset us both and it was just, not the best ending to the evening but overall, the entire night was simply magical and the best birthday present ever because I got to spend one magical night with a man that I truly adore and we got to be free, together ♥

I don't wanna ruin this post by telling you all what our serious conversation was about so I'm just gonna end this post on a romantic and happy note (:

As Van Halen would say, "How do you know when it's love?"
I can't tell you, but it lasts forever ♥

Wicked Lovely

So, I haven't posted in a very long while.
Things have been quite hectic and crazy over here lately.

Well, just to update you on a few things, I'm fresh out of high school.
I graduated in February and I started community college before I graduated.
I just finished the Spring semester with passing grades in the two classes I took as a non-metriculated student and I'll be starting full time in the fall as a Liberal Arts major.
Hopefully I can find a job around then but for now, I'm trying to become a volunteer at my local hospital.
I wish I could get a job now but I have to go down to South Carolina and help out my grandparents with my baby cousin so I'll be down there the whole month of July and I'll be back in August.
My official graduation is in June when all the slackers graduate on time lol
My birthday was just recently and I am now officially eighteen and loving it (:

Now that I've finished school until the fall, I have more time to blog and study for my permit test so I can FINALLY learn how to drive.

I think I've matured in the past year ALOT and I've learned about life and about myself in general.
I'm starting to see who my true friends are and I'm trying to make new ones and stick around my neck of the woods as far as hanging out and making friends goes and I'm trying to stay away from my cousins territory because I just don't belong there and I think I can see where I'm not wanted, but that's okay because I don't wanna be there anyway.
I got my own life to live, my own friends to hang out with, and people to meet so I don't even NEED to be there in the first place and I am quite content with where I am right now.

An even bigger newsflash, I guess you could call it, is that I am truly, madly, and very deeply in love with someone right now but it's so very complicated and I don't think I need to post my whole life story on my blog but just thought ya'll should know that little tidbit.
But you can all know his name is Benjamin, but everyone calls him Benji, but I call him by my own nickname that I gave him which is the Great Benjamin ♥
He is truly amazing and I never thought I could find a guy that would treat me as good as he does and makes me feels this way.
I've honestly never felt this way about anybody before in my entire life and I'm not just saying that.
I can't explain how he makes me feel but he makes me feel different, and important, and special and there are just no words but so many at the same exact time.
We have so much in common and well, yeah. Oh, and he's Nigerian which makes him black but I really could care less about his color and I also don't care what anyone thinks about it because honestly, there is nothing wrong with an interracial relationship and if two people are happy together and make each other happy, then just leave them the FUCK alone.
PERIOD.

I can't really say I'm in a relationship but I know that I am MOST DEFINITELY not available in ANY WAY shape or form.
Well, as good ole' Bella from the Twilight Saga would say, (even though Hermione is a WAY better role model for girls and totally more kickass), "I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him." ♥
Did I mention that his name is Benji ? [:
TEE HEE ! ^_^

That is all.
TOOTLES ! ♥

Writing My First Album Review

So, I'm getting a big and helpful headstart on my career.
My "mentor", Tommy, gave me my first assignment in my career as a rock journalist.

My assignment is to write a review for Third Eye Blind's newest album, URSA Major.
Right now, I am jotting now background notes I need to include about the album and the band and also researching some tips on what should or needs to go into an album review.

I will keep you posted.

I will also be working on a new post that I am calling:

"Love Letter to My Leather"

~I.F.~

♥ College Fair ♥

I am exhausted.
I was up late last night because I went to a College Fair at Danbury Fair Mall, went to Friendlys for dinner, and when I got home I had to do my homework and sift through the over 100 college brochures I got.

There are about 6 I am most interested in out of the 100 brochures I have.

 ♥ University of New Haven ♥

This university is local and the tuition is very cheap for in-state transfers: $9,000-$17,000 per year. They have a great Communications and Journalism program and they also have an Interior Design Major.

♥ Paier College of Art ; Hamden, CT ♥

This school is also local and tuition per year is about $15,000. They have Interior Design and Photography majors.

♥ Fashion Design & Merchandising School ; California ♥

This school is in California and has a great Interior Design and Fashion Photography Program.

♥ Digital Media Arts School; Florida ♥

This school is in Florida and they have really great Video Game Design and Photography majors.

Greensboro University ; North Carolina

This is one state away from my grandparents and they have great Journalism and Photography majors.

Coastal Carolina University ; South Carolina

This is very close by my grandparents house. It's about a 5 to 10 minute drive and they have many great Writing majors and courses.

*The hearts indicate my favorite schools and best picks*

My plan is to go to a Community College or University for about a year or two to raise my GPA and than I plan to transfer to one of the above schools.

I want to major in Interior Design or Photography.

I want to minor in either Journalism, Fiction Writing/Creative Writing, or Poetry.

If I had to take a science class in college, I'd want to take either Forensic Science or Marine Biology.

The College Fair was amazing and I think I know what I want now ...

♥ I want to be either an Interior Designer or Professional Photographer and have Writing be a side job/hobby ♥

P.S. I'm also getting a professional camera for Christmas so I can delve back into Photography again ♥ Purple, of course :]

~I.F.~